sateen 18

it was the closest i’ve come to spinning
since as long as i could remember
words so comforting & familiar
it took my entire will not to mouth along
flickers of this & that & other things
burying me under his weight
and losing me in the breadth of my imagination
it
was
everything
hidden in a way that is only possible in candlelight
trembling on the edge of life
i forgot if i was supposed to breathe
or hold my breath